Whores, Healers, and The Invoice in Between

A Mini Case Study in Subconscious Money Blocks and Shadow Work

When I was growing up, my dad had one clear instruction for my future:

"I don’t care what you do, just don’t end up on the pole."

I’ve got no plans to become a stripper.

But lately, I’ve been re-examining this well-meaning fatherly advice. Join me for this week’s mini-download, filed under: things I didn’t expect to feel guilty about while trying to get paid.

When You Unconsciously Want to Fail

Picture your subconscious as a particularly stubborn filing cabinet.

Years of conditioning get shoved into folders marked "acceptable" and "absolutely not," often without our conscious permission. The problem? These files often contain some surprisingly counterproductive instructions.

The more conflicts in the cabinet, the more likely you’ll unconsciously self-sabotage when trying to achieve your goals because an unacknowledged part of you feels uncomfortable with the conditions for success.

Here’s my example of this…

I’ve been working on a virtual coaching offer that I can already tell is going to get picked up by a subset of male clients.

This is exactly how coaching businesses tend to go; you don’t start winning until you experiment enough to discover the niche you’re best equipped to serve.

So, happy to have found mine, I began asking myself: What the hell do I charge?

I meditated on it, tuned in, and waited for the universe to drop a number on my mental whiteboard. And when $300/hour popped into my head, instantly, I felt resistance.

Not because what I’m offering isn’t worth it. It absolutely is.

But because some dusty little moral ledger in my subconscious flicked on and whispered this.

"You can’t charge that—men paying you that much to talk to them online is two clicks away from being a cam girl.”

Welcome to Money Block Theatre

If you've never heard the term "money block," it's basically a subconscious belief that sabotages your ability to receive, hold, or grow money. And this one came straight from my shadow.

Turns out, even though I've intellectually rejected the whole "money corrupts the sacred" mythology that keeps therapists and coaches financially struggling, some version of a block had set up camp in my psyche anyway.

I’ve had a tiny accountant in my brain who's been programmed by a Victorian morality handbook.

Despite a lifetime of supporting male friends and partners on their self-development journeys, I’d unconsciously written them off as potential clients, all because of some shadowy association I unconsciously judged.

Meanwhile, in Mirror Land, my ex was literally an OF creator (iykyk). And here I was, feeling shame about transactional intimacy.

What a sense of humor the universe has.

Rewriting the Ledger

Here’s the dusty equation in my subconscious, quietly blocking an entire demographic from accessing my work:

Male + Money + Emotional Labor = Sex Work

To clear it, I slapped this on a digital post-it I see daily: "Sharing your energy with people of the opposite sex in exchange for money isn’t a moral failing."

Then I reframed it in the positive so it would stick better:

"Sharing your energy with people of the opposite sex in exchange for money can be morally virtuous."

And that, my friends, is what shadow work looks like in practice.

Share your own shadow-work downloads in the comments.

Bonus points if they involve money, sex, or power—the trinity of topics we're all pretending we don't think about constantly.

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